A silent retreat (with Labyrinth walk) - Part 1

I came back to Perth from HK feeling weary (partly due to the mid-night flight ... or because of the draining holiday in busy HK). Anyway, the first thing I wanted to do therefore is getting some rest in a divine way - retreat.

Picture of the Labyrinth in Nathanael's Rest, Mundaring WA Australia

I was hoping to bring to God myself, yes my true self, in the hope that God would continue to break me and mold me for His use. I've got a simple purpose - "Lord, show me what is not pleasing to you", as I prepared for the 1st labyrinth walk of the retreat.

After the 1st labyrinth walk, God has very quickly revealed to me 3 things that come between us. My bad temper towards others (mainly my family) made me guilty and ashamed. My discontentment has driven me to think about how to obtain more wealth. My pursuit of personal fame (both academic and professional achievement) has put all my strength and focus on ... me, me, and me.

I'm sure God isn't pleased as these things have kept coming back haunting me year after year. I realize these are the little yet powerful demons in my heart which I don't have a quick fix to.

Here I am ... I need a heart surgery Lord. Please help me.